A few years back I started a quilt that I now call “IT”. “IT” represents my depression and this quilt was me working through “IT” with sewing and embroidery.
This was therapeutic for me. There was no measuring, or stitch perfection. I threw some of my own textile designs in this quilt- and the whole combination of fabrics together is not very attractive, and it is meant to make you feel a certain way- uncomfortable.
I was not feeling well when I worked on it and it shows.
“IT” is raw, and there are a lot of not nice things I say about myself.
There are proclamations made, like “IT can hide behind my smile” and “IT makes me feel Heavy”. Dates are embroidered on it stating a time when I tried to end my life.
I was diagnosed with “IT” in 1992, and this quilt states that also.
This isn’t meant to be a blog post of sadness. It is a post of Tenacity.
As you can see, “I am a warrior”!
I am also
tenacious and I will not allow
“IT” to take me.
Tenacity is my chosen word for 2020- Have you chosen a word for 2020?